just down

maybe this is one of the down days from being
diabetic, i don’t know. but i have been bawling most of the
day over anything and everything. i’ve been trying to
work on webpages, but my heart is just not there to do
it. i would just as soon crawl back into the bed and
stay there, but it is only 4:30pm indiana time. i have
been on vacation this week and i go back tomorrow
night, maybe that is part of it too. but i feel so bad
right now and just really sad.<br

6 Responses to “just down”

  1. Neva Marjory Says:

    Debbie,….being down is often happening with
    diabetics. Even wonderful me, can get there
    also.<br
    it….you can shake it off because that is what will happen
    anyway (you can’t stay down for the rest of your life,
    right?) So why waist time staying down?? OR…you can
    make yourself more and more down and I wonder what
    that is good for? You still have to come out of it,
    again why waist those days????<br
    in the mirror like I do,( I have many troubles to
    overcome every day) and ask yourself why you are doing
    this to yourself…dia can do a very good job all by
    itself, believe me.<br
    such a waist of time!!!!!!<br
    personal enemy and confront that enemy now. Who is

    winning….YOU or that stupid enemy?????<br
    I know it isn’t waist. It is WASTE. But in the
    maintime you had a good laugh didn’t you?????

  2. Neva Marjory Says:

    JohnV is right, despite the deliberate
    misspellings, we have to take the “Response-ABILITY” for our
    feelings and actions.<br
    down in the ‘pit’ because they seem to get a charge
    out of people feeling sorry for them. I for one am
    not that way. <br
    deal with right now, My dad’s mortality, My lack of
    work, a man I cannot marry because of losing SSI and my
    medical, and the diabetes responsibilities too…At the
    top of these. <br
    worried about my dad, At least I have a dad to worry
    about.<br
    HAVE a house.<br
    future, But At least I have a manfriend who doesn’t give
    up on me to go find someone with her own job and

    medical freedoms.<br
    bills, but I have dogs from my own choice. The
    brown-eyed-snuggles are my kids…I can’t have any of the human type
    so, hell yeah, I substituted.<br
    gigs and work, but the gift of music isn’t going to go
    away just because I don’t earn a fortune with
    it…It’s within me already, and will always be
    here.<br
    to stay there. I remember my mom’s statement that
    “It isn’t a disgrace to Get something, but it’s a
    disgrace to KEEP it”…We were actually having one of
    -THOSE- talks about sex and VD and such. She told me to
    always tell her of problems and she’d help. <br
    I apply that to my weight and my moods. I may gain
    a few pounds, but it doesn’t stay on for long, I
    get on the diet and walk instead of sitting around
    feeling depressed and watching Jerry Springer and
    shovelling another mouthfull in. Food -in my case- is NOT a
    buddy.<br
    hope with a night’s sleep and some affirming thoughts
    to yourself about how good you really are will make
    tomorrow a better day.<br
    do go hand in hand. Biochemicals be damned, you have
    anyone try to live as we do, always considering every
    morsel, every activity, BG checks and Dr.s who may look
    upon us as ‘no brainers’ or “encephilaticly
    challanged” and talk down to us all the while….Bound to get
    anyone down.<br
    terminology and they don’t stand a bloody chance with me
    &lt;G&gt;<br

  3. Neva Marjory Says:

    Hi Debbie,<br
    day today. Depression sometimes hits diabetics. I was
    able to shake it for many years, however, about a year
    ago I found that I would burst into tears at the drop
    of a hat and for no reason at all. <br
    immediately put me on a very low dosage of Celexa- 1/2 tablet
    per day. He told me that there would be no withdrawal
    if I found that I no longer needed it after a few
    weeks. <br
    “pill” to my diet, but I have been pleased with this. If
    you find that your depression doesn’t go away…. do
    talk to your doctor about it. Hugs, De

  4. Neva Marjory Says:

    John- Thanks for helping me replace my lost bookmarks! De

  5. Neva Marjory Says:

    Jenny,<br
    it this morning! Bless ya!<br

  6. Neva Marjory Says:

    I am a different Deb but was curious how many pills you are on? Deb C

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