HI EVERYONE!
HI MY NAME IS JULIE AND I AM 31 YRS OLD. I HAVE
BEEN INSULIN DEPEN. FOR OVER 6 YRS NOW. I AM IN GREAT
NEED OF SUPPORT, I HAVE NO SELF CONTROL WHEN IT COMES
TO MY DIABETES…I EAT WHAT EVER I WANT WHEN I WANT
IT, I DONT TEST MY BLOOD SUGAR, AND I DONT EXERCISE.
I KNOW THAT IN THE FUTURE I WILL PAY FOR THESE BAD
CHOICES. I HAVE A 6YR OLD SON AND I WANT TO BE HEALTHY SO
THAT I AM HERE FOR HIM YET I HAVE NO SELF CONTROL..AT
ALL. I AM ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT THIS AND TELL MY SELF
I NEED TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT BUT THEN THE NEXT
DAY COMES AND ITS LIKE I FORGOT ALL ABOUT “STARTING
OVER” I HATE THIS ABOUT MYSELF. AND I DO WANT TO
CHANGE. HAVE ANY OF YOU EVER GONE THROUGH THIS? MY PLAN
NOW IS THAT STARTING SATURDAY I AM GONNA “START OVER”
AGAIN, I PLAN ON GETTING UP AND STARTING THE DAY OFF BY
TESTING MY BLOOD SUGAR AND THEN STARTING THE NO SUGAR
DIET. I WOULD LOVE TO FIND SOMEONE TO KEEP IN CONTACT
WITH TO TALK ABOUT DIABETES AND JUST TO KEEP ONE
ANOTHER MOTIVATED AND ON THE RIGHT TRACK.<br
YOU WOULD LIKE TO CHAT YOU CAN USE MY EMAIL AT
JMLOGAN1@…<br
FROM YOU. THANKS FOR LISTENING, JULIE
September 20th, 2003 at 7:53 am
Julie,<br
First, just because you are diabetic does not mean you
have to deny yourself anything. It only means you have
to compensate. How? By doing your tests and giving
the insulin to take care of what you ate.<br
how do you get started? Do a test RIGHT NOW! Not
Saturday, not tomorrow, not before your next meal. RIGHT
NOW! What was the result?<br
and tell them you want to learn how to set your own
insulin doses based on what you eat. GO TO THAT
APPOINTMENT. It will give you the information needed to go to
the next step and allow you to eat anything with NO
GUILT.<br
September 24th, 2003 at 2:15 pm
THANKS TOM! I AM GOING TO BE STRONG AND THINK MORE POSITIVE…I CAN DO THIS!!
WELL THANKS AGAIN AND I WILL KEEP YA POSTED!! JULIE
November 25th, 2004 at 4:38 am
My name is Bruce and I’m new to the club. I’m 42
and a type II currently taking glipizide and was dx’d
with diabetes almost three years ago. Glad to see this
club is here because I have found that many
non-diabetics, including doctors, don’t understand the emotional
stress that often accompanies the disease. Before I had
diabetes, I would have never believed the emotional issues
associated with it.<br
that I had diabetes when I bought a new home and took
a routine test for a life insurance policy. I was
shocked when the insurance company refused to insure me
because my bg levels were too high. This was the first
emotional hit. In turn, I was angry and refused to believe
the report, and went to my doctor to prove the
insurance company wrong. The doctor confirmed I had the
disease, handed me a meal plan, put me on an 1800 calorie
diet, and had me monitor my bg. It seemed like
everything that I considered food was in the taboo group on
that list or that the quantity was so small that I
couldn’t really enjoy eating anymore. I was really bummed
when the rest of the family could chow down on a great
meal, and I was allotted an appetizer portion. I hated
having diabetes and was resentful and had long talks
with God about it.<br
lost over 40lbs and was able to keep my bg under
control with sensible eating and without the aid of meds.
I could even cheat sometimes and get away with it,
and I felt liberated. Life was getting better
again.<br
when my bg levels started to elevate. I was so
frustrated and angry. The glucometer that had been so kind
to me had turned on me and had become my enemy.
“Maybe something is wrong with it?,” I thought, so I
went out and bought another one. No difference. I
began to dread taking readings and getting the bad
news. There is an old Chinese proverb, “If you don’t
want the answer, don’t ask the question.” So, I zipped
up the new glucometer and had it join its mate in
the far reaches of a easily-forgotten drawer. This
was a big mistake.<br
was depressed, stressed, and in denial. I would begin
each day on my diet, but never end it that way. I
didn’t want to talk about diabetes to anyone. To counter
my stress and depression, I sold my business, but
that didn’t help. My depression got worse and I became
agoraphobic. For days on end I would go to my office, lock the
door, draw the drapes closed, and just want to be
alone. Feelings of hopelessness, self-pity, and
frustration flooded over me continually. At night the anxiety
was so heavy that I didn’t sleep much. I sometimes
cried and often wished God would just take me home to a
better place. I was at the bottom. It didn’t seem fair.
Life wasn’t fun anymore.<br
despair for months on end, I came to the conclusion that
God wasn’t calling me home just yet, and if I
wouldn’t take care of myself for myself, I needed to do it
at least for my wife and children.<br
encouragement and support of a friend, I went back to my doctor
to face the situation. As I suspected, my condition
had worsened; I had organ damage and was put on meds.
He also Rx’d Paxil for the anxiety.<br
has changed my life, but at this point, I am
determined to not let it defeat me. It can if we let it. I
don’t fully understand why I have had such a hard time
accepting the fact that I have diabetes and why I have had
emotional issues in dealing with it. I was never this way
about anything before and have often felt so out of
character and ashamed in the way I have handled
things.<br
discover that many of you have had the same feelings at
one time or another as I have had. Sorry, to have
gone on like this, but I really needed to get this
out. Thanks for your patience.<br
December 1st, 2004 at 2:11 pm
Hi — I just joined this club today, and, Bruce,
yours was the first posting I read. The emotional
stress you talked about is very real to me. I was only
recently diagnosed as Type II. I was initially told that I
was borderline, and we’d control it through diet
alone. I saw my doctor yesterday, and she’s added
Glucophage to the growing list of meds I take for other
stuff. That was a real blow for me to absorb. I don’t
know why it’s bothering me this much, but it is. I
guess I’ll get over it.<br
agoraphobia — I’ve been phobic since I was 26. I’ve had a
difficult couple of years. My parents were both quite
elderly and, as the local child, I became more and more
involved with their care. Lymphoma finally took my mother
last August; six months later, my father succumbed to
a heart attack. My life feels chaotic and
overwhelming, so being told I now have diabetes to deal with is
the icing on the cake, if you’ll excuse the
expression. <br
folks. I look forward to getting to know you.<br
December 2nd, 2004 at 3:47 pm
Hi Bruce<br
emotional side of things is what I find the most difficult
to cope with, and the better that gets, the better
my control is. <br
conversations with God. That hit a chord with me - except I
think I shouted!<br
for the Diabetic Soul which is put out by the
American Diabetes Association, and found this to be a
help.<br
December 10th, 2004 at 2:55 am
Thanks for your reply. I’ve learned so much about
diabetes from online sources, but getting the experience
to deal with it all just takes time. It’s nice to
know that experienced voices out there like John
understand and are willing to share their acquired
knowledge.<br
hope this next one is a great one for
you.<br
January 3rd, 2005 at 3:32 pm
Thanks Bruce. I’m glad to have found this group. I have a lot to learn about
my “new” life. I agree it’s great to have the sage voices here who are willing
to share. All the best to you.. Jo
November 14th, 2006 at 11:14 pm
I haven’t been able to visit this group as often as I wanted. Myhusband Bobby
(Reticuli2000) was the one who created this group forme so that I could keep it
going.I know that it’s pretty slow around here, but I hope that everyonewon’t
abandon this group. I encourage everyone to post. If you haveany concerns,
favorite recipes, diabetes stories, or any info thatmight be of help to our
members please post them here.I use an insulin pump to control my sugars. Some
weeks my sugars seemto run below 100 most of the time, then there are the times
when Ican’t seem to get my numbers back to normal levels. Even with thepump it’s
been a little frustrating, especially since I haven’t hadmuch guidance from my
doctors. I found a new medical doctor and askmy endocrinologist to help me find
a Certified Diabetes Educator. Ihad an appointment with the CDE last week, and I
hope that she canhelp me to get my blood glucose within normal range more
often.I’m pretty shy, but I’ve been learning the hard way that if you don’tspeak
and talk to your doctors about your concerns things will justkeep going down
hill. Diabetes can be pretty confusing if you don’thave support from your
doctors.Health to you all. ~Taty
November 16th, 2006 at 12:49 am
hey Tatty actually i was very sorry to see u not posting or taking
interest in the group i am very much here i joines another group
because i need daily motivation and can’t be a well behaved diabetic
on a passive mode. (smile) please keep posting so every body stays
motivated. i was thinking about switching to a pump but the cost is
very high don’t know what to do my endo said the nasal insulin was
not too far away so i guess i have to wait. cheeky
November 17th, 2006 at 2:25 am
Hi Cheeky,I would like to thank you and everyone that has continued to keep up
with Diabetes and Your Emotions.Hopefully the nasal pump will be available soon.
It’s not fair that the insulin pump is so high priced, so many people can
benefit from it.I know what you mean about being a “well behaved diabetic”, it’s
not always easy keeping up with the demands of diabetes. I get upset when it
seems that one day my blood glucose is good, and the following day the numbers
seem to unexplainably go all crazy. When this happens, I go nuts looking over my
charts trying to figure out where I may have made a mistake. Keeping control of
my sugars hasn’t always been easy, but it’s worth it in the long run.Peace and
Health. ~Taty :-)— In diabetesandyouremotions@y…, cheekired <no_reply@y…
interest in the group i am very much here i joines another group
need daily motivation and can’t be a well behaved diabetic
(smile) please keep posting so every body stays
about switching to a pump but the cost is
endo said the nasal insulin was
cheeky